i can't write a single sentence sob or grousing right now. not even if it tried. my roommate left both bathroom lights on and is now snoring in his bed... but i just got up to turn them off. no big deal. Life has donned me with a heart of gold that recently has been beaming out light so bright like yellow moon all the light from outside me: the people, the places, all aligned like the earth sun moon on full moon, full heart lighting up the land for miles and everything howling roused in a bath of gilded luminescence, the world is smiling in my presence. I don't know why. feel as though it is just some convergence of elements. i'm in my prime. i feel like i could accomplish anything right now. mercury in retrograde? who knows. who cares. it's good. it's bountiful, like the harvest. there is plenty to indulge and enough to go around.
I'm happy. Truly contented with where i have come in new york city, with who i have become. It feels right to leave at this time. Like i've finally made it to some high peak and am now able to look out across the monstrous labyrinth i strove though for the past two years. look back with joy and appreciation and just be in this high place with great people, people who i will soon leave. I don't know what i came here to do, but whatever it was i succeeded and now it's like a graduation party or victory celebration or something. everyone joins hands in a big open meadow and sings amongst the wildflowers, dancing, smiling faces and eyes. it's beautiful. and i just want to enjoy this moment. enjoy this time because i know it won't last. there is more trial and challenge ahead. more struggle. more fight. but here, right now, is a very beautiful place, glowing, golden. Illuminated all around me, within me so bright.
